Secondary.

This is just a short poem about the women who strive for a love that just may not be relevant. Being Secondary is NEVER an option.

Reckless Still.

How dare he believe

in a world full of deceit-

that I would ever be complacent with being secondary.

I wait for a call; a text even, but he stalls

and I start to develop a thirst.

but i know in my heart, he's a man who may lack

the ability to put me first.

So does this make me tolerant of being half loved?

Am I still a woman? Will I ever smarten up?

Can he imagine a future with his match?

Or will he keep me in his pocket, keeping me bounded like his cash stack.

There has to be more, I've invested too much in this now!

I'm lost and confused- I just have to be found, saved even...

He deserves this love just as much as I.

Right?

Does he deserve the sound of my voice when HE decides to call?

Or my clothes scattered amongst his hardwood floor?

A title is what I want, something to do is what I've become.

He's soon to feel my thoughts because i'm definitely second to none.

How can a woman ask for something that may not really be there?

I talk of him while second guessing if i'm even a thought during his day...

This isn't what I signed up for.

Secondary just isn't me.

-RecklessStill.2011

The List.

Grown Content.

That means 18+!

Thanks.

 My opinion on making that infamous 'pros & cons' list? BLAH! Not necessary, wouldn't want to put you in my pandora's box of realities/ fantasies. I mean, if I couldn't understand you in the first couple of dates, why are you even around THAT long? Now don't get me wrong, I have made lists before... 'pros&cons', 'What I can change', 'His bad habits', 'Biggest, Thickest, & Stamina" chart [girl, i KNOW u have one stashed]- I am thee definition of organization [just a word for perfecting my relationships]. But women are emotional beings, and we CAN change the world; a man? Maybe not so much, lol. So it kind of defeats the purpose, don't you think? And anyway ladies, have you ever thought that THEY have lists out on us? Granted, it might be the, 'Best head' list, or even the 'Numbered' list... you know, when we're considered numbers. Is it merely an ego trip for them, and just memories for us? All I'm saying ladies, is if you are willing and able to fall in love with a man who might have a couple of flaws, throw the muthafuckin' lists out. Men, you too. I understand we have standards and want someone who is in sync with us- but jotting down wants & needs limit us just a bit. We have to know ourselves first before even putting in effort to the next person. So yes, lists may be fun in the beginning, but if your significant other isn't all he/she was labeled to be- you're only disappointing yourself in the end. And you'll just be a victim to the infamous 'list'.

-RecklessStill.2011